| Text to Bunny |
[07 Jan 2012|04:37am] |
1:12pm
Hey were you at the march thing? Just wondering if you're ok.
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| Jack's journal [2009-08-29, 1pm] |
[03 Jan 2012|06:34pm] |
The whole day yesterday I had this really bad like black, dark, horrible feeling. It got worse around news time when the TV was on near me, and I had no idea why. I kept racking me brain thinking of why I'd feel so horrible, had I done something terrible I didn't remember, or something? But no, I didn't do anything. I just randomly felt horrible yesterday and especially horrible when the news was on.
Same thing today. I woke up at around 10 and felt shitty the whole damned morning. Just felt like shit, just anxious and with a clear feel of dread as if something, the worst thing imaginable, had happened and nothing happened, nothing ever happened! Then I wondered if I was going insane, even more than usual, or if that thing people say about having bad feelings about stuff that hasn't happened yet is true, like Obi-Wan and his "I have a bad feeling about this" thing, and there are psychics like this, I think I read something about it. But the thing was, yesterday nothing happened, this morning nothing seemed to happen and I went on feeling like shit for no reason.
But then it did happen.
The fucking world exploded. Thousands of people dead, more maimed, people's homes, people's lives.
And apparently I felt it was going to happen, I felt something fucking horrible was going to happen. And what good did it do me or anybody else?
It's like the fucking world, or God, or whatever is actually mocking me.
I wish I was dead.
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